Birthday 21st

i shouldn't deserve so much attention for my birthday,
it's just a date like any other normal days.

esp. when i refuse to pay for my friends' presents, when i dun even remember when their birthdays are.

I am not a great friend, i shouldn't deserve this much.
I'm not someone who will wholly care for anyone else.
I am a motive-driven person.

Looking back these 21 years, I have been immature or trying to be one for most part of my life.
I refuse to to grow intellectually and think like an adult.

I think it is time for me to drop my resistance and start growing
Uni life will be the start of this change, or i should even start now.

shouldn't let the thinkings of "The Little Prince" bother me too much for now.
I'm just afraid the world of adulthood is too much for me to handle, that's why i've been avoiding it till now.

21 years I've been running away from things happening around me, refusing the accept them.
For now, i should start to make it a point to drop my immature thinkings and trying a difference

Should, until something negative from inside me lurks out that is,
before i become someone whom i myself will detest,
until i know that i've become a better person, who is truly still me.