Scribbles on bus

I will not org something like a birthday party, cos' it's too costly.

I dun want to be a 主角 and have people wishing me happy birthday, organising a party to bring in gifts.

I will save the money for a mp3 player ba. More for some alone time. I think it is something important when I am spending time alone, which will take up a majority of my time ba...

More than 80% of my time is in solitude, on bus, travelling time etc.

Why spend the money on a night's of gathering, so splendoring liddat...

If I dun org, Yeeloong or others will, I will still spend quality time with my group of friends. Just that the limelight will be on them, not me. I dun needthe limelight, or be a 主角 for the night. It's troublesome, and I dun think I can enjoy liddat. In my everyday life, I too AA liao, so yeah, take a break.

Birthday is just a date ba... Doesn't mean much actually...

I do have a lot of acquantances, but calling them over for a party without knowing them well is troublesome and hypocritical. Call them over, show like I got a lot of friends, act friendly when 根本就不熟， wtf sia. So fake.

So 渔wong得利 lor, haha, just attend other people's parties and enjoy lor, they will org, so why do I care. in the end still spend some quality time together ma, the group of friends. So that's what's important.

I feel like I need to 坚持 more also. Being too mellow won't get things done. But that also projects a more negative image lar, but nvm lar, 自己方便就好 ma.

on bus 70 to Yio Chu Kang MRT station
14:45 - 15:00

continued on train station 15:05

Invest, Exploit, Manipulate.

一个人的价值在于他能够贡献都少，
一个没有利用价值的人，
对我来说也不需要怎么 invest in liao.

Hahaha... This is my philosophy in making and maintaining friendships.
很多人不相信，but 我回想起来，这也是真的，因为很多人不了解它背后的含义。

continued on train 15:14

要开学了，我也不知道我会以怎样的 mentality, attitude 去面对那里的人，怎样过那里大学 & hostel life. 要以兵营里的傲慢， 冷酷， 还是一中学时期的疯疯癫癫， 无所不谈的性格，或是 JC Group 的好玩， sui bian la~ attitude 呢？还是像现在这样，装老大，big boss 的 dominating character 呢？ haha... 就看我的 room-mate 是怎么样的一个人了，until 我知道他的 pattern, 我才知道我的 hostel life 是应该怎样走的了。 直到最近我才发现他绝不是我想象中的那么简单。。。

要做个坏人的话，路会容易得多， 也很适合我。
Too bad, 我没那勇气 and heart to walk that path ba...
因为我太想当好人了。
电视剧里， 每次最后胜出的不是好人吗？
我只是想赢罢了。

- on train 15:25
approaching Marsiling station 7th April 2006