again

I dunnoe why i am typing this, but the kiss biag song is playing, the girl's eyes are blind now, now very hungry, maybe i will want to say how i am feeling now.

I feel my sec friends leaving, I resent the fact that my army friends are coming into my life so suddenly, I dunwan to commit into this friendship... to me, being a buddy is forever, it is not so simple... The more you're into it, the more you will fall from it. Perhaps, squall has affected me, his thinking is true.

As for the girl i thought i liked for so long, I do not like her lar, she is just a name, a symbol ba, there must be someone i should like at a time ba... then now is she lor, it is that simple lor... liddat lor. very easy, someone who shows show concern to me, i will like here lor. Songs will really change my mood sia... So~! you are my imaginary friend now ba. Maybe someone will click randomly and fall upon this shit leh, or one day i will surely end up telling someone about this... I know myself too well liao, i will leak this out, whether to zikai, or zihui, I will think i do silly things when i am in a happy mood, when i look back in my depressd or AP mood. And i will think i do silly things when i am in a happy mood looking into my depression or AP mood. Split personality? no, this is just me, I just want to attract attention.

Speaking of AA, most ppl who are outcaste, are AA ppl. people like michael, brendan, even alex... I sympathise them... they are just like me... It's only that i dun get outcaste ba... becos' i will act hypo sometimes. I go talk to them also partly becos' i want you all to think that i am a nice guy~! yeah~!, nice guy... I am jealous when karyong gets so much respect, when chinmeng said that lewis is a nice guy. Damn~! cb, i am just a nuisance, an AA ba, and i am thinking now how much attention i will be receiving with this blog, by acting with depression. Ha, and when the song changed to a lighter, nicer one, i will be thinking optimistic, to the original me, or hypo me, trying to AA again, and think that all these are crap~! AP me hates OPti me, and Opti me hates depressed me. We are enemies ba... but we got common goals, AA~!