direction

I lack a motivation, a direction.

A reason for the hardwork now.
I've lost it. But i will need something more concrete now.
Something real, now just part of my imagination.

Identity

Who am i? I am Jian Yang, but what does that mean?

Am I trying too hard, or am I never too serious enough to give it my all...

A dream... is all i can do to savour that sweetness... and only in dreams, can I do all these.

It always begins very well, with luck and the advantage in the start.
But soon after, it will crumple. It always does.

I am always so motivated, confident and self-assured in the start, and end up doubting, insisting and trying desperately and eventually gave up again.

It all will end up as a cycle, just as the other cycles. of the other things in my life.
If i can break through, i'd have already done it long ago.