Why am i so weak.

Instead of progressing, i am degrading.

Instead of being the best part of my life, it ended up with me struggling most of the time.

Losing a focus, losing a goal, losing a direction, even losing myself.

In the pursue of something greater, to grow, to gain some achievements,

I ended up being dishonest with myself, dwelling into helplessness.

Sinking into being alone. With everyone near, beside, but alone.

I'm scared... so scared, i will just end my life like this.

Why would it progress like this in the first place...

Am I too childish, to behave like this, am I just can't accept that this is really who i am.

Moments of truth always hit me thinking of what am i doing comparing to the others.

I am just wasting time away, wasting life away, wasting my youth which will never turn back once again.

I started talking to myself lately.
Jian Yang is the most frequent name whom I called out to.
Speaking those words i'd like to hear from someone else.

To me, I am just a kid.

我在气我自己。
不够坦白于自己。

I know you dun wan to listen, that's why i dun say anymore.

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I need an official reason to be sad.
If not its just vying attention.
Or else friends will not spare the attention to listen...

Is I walked out on you,
or you all walked out on me.