I dreamt of you again

I dreamt of you again. The second one in a row.
This dream, i was a special ops soldier, going to carry out a mission which i know i can't return back again.

I was holding you, standing, and you were lying on my chest.
We stayed like this for awhile, for how long i didn't know.
I was touched that i can finally hold you like this, but we're going to part.
I'll never be back again, but i am still glad, that i can finally hold you in my arms.

In both dreams, the feeling is about the same.
But they are so different from the weeks-long series that i dreamt about months ago,
when we were classmates. I used to take naps then, and wake up smiling, snuggling in my bed refusing to end the sweetness. My sem2, I was indulged in sweetness. Very happy and contented.

These two dreams for the last two nights, this feeling of parting. Does it mean something subconciously.

支持

为什么当我感到全世界都在支持我时，
是那些最重要的，最亲的， 让我感到失望。

原来，可能支持是用口说的。
就算你不能来，但一份心意也好。

我在学习不能期待，只能盼望。
但又有谁能做到这点。 我只能故作潇洒。

我做不到。