我没有输，也没有放弃，但我也不能赢。
因为喜欢你，在乎你，所以不会承认我喜欢你。

12.57am

隐藏

明明就是喜欢你，但又不能表示
想念你时，想紧紧抱着你，见面了却不能
每次都想让你知道，我对你对其他人不同，
你也应该知道，应该也体会到

其实我并不是很了解你，你也不是很想知道我是个怎样的人。
现在是不可能的，以后我也可能不会等太久吧。
这不是我能选择的，这是我太了解我自己了。


zihui, I did it again, she is just like you.


You give me this feeling, that you're the kind whom, who see who you like, will show
there's no way to try to win your heart over..

that, you are not looking for, or say you are rejecting, maybe fearing the idea of committed relationships,
just wanting to enjoy life and the accompany you have now, in a carefree way.

There's no way to win your heart, you're waiting for that special someone
someone whom, you will fall in love with, and show your feelings to..
Someone really special and unique to you.

someone adventurous and sauve, someone whom i may never know who.

I know that you're being bothered by his pursuits,
probably feeling troubled and vexed from his messages.

That's why I am feeling awful, I wanted to send you a message to calm you down,
to soothe your feelings and to show that I am here for you, to show you that I care.

But I am afraid and worried of that I might become another him in front of you,
that you will feel bothered by my message too, giving you stress and and adds to your troubled mind.

That's why... why I dunnoe what to do, what to send, how to type the message and get it delivered
the way I want you to feel when reading it.

During exams, I try not to think about it, or I am actually putting in effort to avoid thinking over it.
Now, almost over, the stress is not on the brain, the thoughts anymore, but clearly felt in the heart.
It's time I do something about it. How, and how to do and what, I dunnoe

I just want to get stronger the next time you see me,
and I want you to know eventually I grew stronger because of you,
because of now, I am too weak... both in the mind and body,

My battle has just started. I dun think I can ever be carefree and rest.
not in anytime soon.
I am going to do and get something for the first time, first time I really go work out for it.

这是我第一次为了什么而努力， 为了什么而在意。

feelings

I dunnoe what I want...
At times like this,
sometimes I feel like i really like you,
when sometimes i just think back and know that i am just lonely and needed someone...

Maybe you just happen to be at the right place at the right time,
maybe, it's true, both way works,
that i really needed someone now, and you are that someone.

By logic, my brain tells me no. We are not suitable at all.
By feelings, my heart is uncertain. I cannot even be sure of my feelings for you,
if i really like you.

Everyone says that to follow the heart is the way man behaves,
but when i cannot even be sure of my own feelings, what's there to follow.
I will continue to move on, continue to try to know you further, deeper.

I hope I can turn back in time, to save myself,
or even better, never need to turn back on this path.
What I only know, what drives me on, is that I know the only thing i cannot turn back...

is time.