Hesistate no more

I hesitate too much..., don't i?
Love is simply not like maths nor physics,
which i can easily derive and comprehend.
It is more simple than that, shouldn't it?

A shower of blessings..., no?
It cleared my mind now,
go for it, jian yang!
hesistate somemore, and there won't be a second chance no more, right?
that's what the equation is, the theory shown, and the history proved.
Ain't you happier on things that you did and gone, then to never solve it,
and never know the answer, never know how well you scored?

Time is the only thing i am playing with now,
after i get past myself.
I simply think and hesitate too much, don't i?

Perhaps...

Perhaps I do not know what's the feeling when I'm with you,
But I do know what loneliness is.
I feel awfully lonely without you.

Perhaps I do not know if we are suitable,
But I do know what fate is.
It brings us together and will tell us in time.

Perhaps I do not know if I will treasure you,
But I do know what jealousy is.
I get so jealous when you're not with me.

Perhaps I do not know if I can protect you,
But I will make sure that nobody can hurt you,
without first getting past me.

Perhaps I cannot give you happiness,
But I do know what happiness is.
I can never be happy seeing you disappointed.

Perhaps I do not know if I care for you enough,
But I do know where my heart is.
I feel it hurting whenever I see you sad.

Perhaps I do not know if I really like you,
But I do know how I really feel inside.
I feel really happy and relaxed when I'm with you.

Perhaps I cannot fill your days with laughter and fun,
But I do recognise the smile on your face,
and I will never stop trying.

Perhaps I do not understand you fully,
But I do know there's always time.
It's for us to slowly find out.

Perhaps you do not reveal your inner self and is wary to be,
But there's this thing called patience and honesty.
And yes, these are the good traits of me.

Perhaps you will always speak with such speed,
that I can't really catch what you say,
But I will always be there to listen.

Perhaps my feelings for you may be a hassle,
and you're dealing with so many of them.
But trust me, I'm so much different.

Perhaps you will doubt that this entry is dedicated just for you,
and that I will write this to any other.
I will tell you you're wrong, I've never never been so firm before.

Perhaps you are unsure of your feelings now,
But don't worry, I don't need an answer.
I just want you to know there's this someone out there for you.

Only for you.

你应该很困或吧，
这么多人在追求你，讨你的欢欣。

我不想做那多一个，加重你的烦恼，
所以我选择沉默，试着给自己多一点时间看清自己。

- astro

不知怎么的，就突然想写一些什么，
忽然觉得空气很凉爽，周遭都很宁静。
这几天的复杂心清，紧绷的思索就突然的，
跟着细雨的暂停，也缓缓地沉淀了。

是那刚才的对话，清新熟悉的 midi 旋律，
还是这舒服的床？ 总觉得如果能把心情说出口，
自由的敞开话题是件多么美好的事。

总觉得被倾诉，是种被依赖的感觉，
一种有用处的想法。 能为了他人存在，
能被他人依靠而被仰望。 是远比依靠他人的温暖的伟大吧。

当然，我也渴望当我需要依靠时，
会有你在那一旁等待着，微笑着，紧握着。

我真想和你好好地谈一谈，看看一下这个平静，
清晰的我，好好地，没有目的地，望着远方谈一谈
心理的想法，做过的美梦，所向往的未来。

现在就让我来好好地享受这样的情景吧。